What have I learned over the year of visits to this forum? Well, that is hard question. At first, it seems like wasted time. I still have not beaten my addictionsand was quite moderate on my other goals. I have not achieved anything significcant, something that I would be proud of. But there is the other side of the medal. Is I the same man as I was year ago? Negative. What have I changed over the past year? At first, it seems like nothing. I am still undergraduate student without girlfriend and bright future. But that past me is not here anymore. That past me is dead and its death bring a new life. Someone more mature and not naive. I reevaluated my view of me and world around. Past ideas were often naive and overly idealistic. Past ideas were foreign for me, products of culture and marketing certain traits. Who am I today? A man dealing with its own unic experience which is extremely valuable. I have learnt have to learn from my mistakes. I have learnt about difficulties in life. I have learnt about responsibility and value of time. I have learnt about power of emotions and how both productive and malignant it can be. I have learnt how to appreciate what I have and do not be jealous over what is not belong to me. I yet have been learning how to live with my past. What is my purpose, my mission? I have a reason to believe that old pieces are forming together a new picture in my mind. More realistic and deeper. Less superficial and less foreign. It is about values and experience and healty perception both myself and world around. It is not a static image, a desirable end state. It is a lifelong path with wins and losses. And I still have to learn a lot. I am especially proud of recent lesson. I have learnt now to measure my expectations to reality and don`t be jealous. I establish deeper relationship with my father and letting go past fantasies about fictional relationships with girl. What is next? I want to go further with The Recovery Workshop. It helps me to think more about things that were quite beyond my vision.