Had a great trip to Budapest. Beautiful city with great architecture and delicious food. Bus tour to Hungary was amazing despite long queues across border and lack of comfort due prolonged time staying in the bus. Exposing to novelty and active engaging in whatever I do is definitely great. Somehow I did not feel a desire to watch P. Fantasies are still present but I do not lose control over it. Old burdens are not going to disappear overnight but I feel myself much capable to withstand its` negative impacts. I actually came to conclusion that this is arousal what actually important, not erection. I have heard about performance anxiety and believe that I also put too much pressure on myself in context of my sexuality instead of trust to my body. This Recovery Worchop is really a thing. I talked with my close friend who is a smoker and have been trying to quit for about a 3 month. He expressed same patterns as me about lack of control, relapses, emotional swinging and melancholy. I help him as much as I can and see a lot of similarity between our addictions. I hope I will help him.