My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Auto Pilot

Discussion in 'Ages 40+' started by Gabriel1960, Mar 4, 2016.

  1. jnv

    jnv Active Member

    Indeed. Meditation can do wonders!
  2. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    So I've never had a problem with looking at Porn without the M and the O. My default was always "What's the point? Why bother looking at porn unless you're also going to M and O?"

    Within the last two weeks, that has, to my surprise, changed. Now, I have on more than one occasion, looked at porn without the M/O.

    So, I'm taking it to this blog.

    Alcohol - Nineteen years
    Credit cards - nine years
    Gambling - one year
    Sugar - eight months
    Rage - one week
    Porn - three days
    PMO - see below

    Not certain where this is going to take me, but I'm along for the ride!

    Love to all.
  3. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Great, lengthy meditation this morning.
  4. Gone fishing

    Gone fishing Active Member

    Porn without masturbation thing you're flirting with is likely to lead to PMO. And why now?
  5. Oneway

    Oneway Active Member

    Have to agree. This seems for me like an alcholic taking a drink but not swallowing it.
  6. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

  7. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Some post on a forum like this, taking the time to individually insult each and every member, in one way or another, and then disappear as mysteriously as they arrived.

    That's life, in the internet age.
  8. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    Bro after my long streak I felt the exact same way for 2 or 3 weeks. I think once we recondition our minds for an extended period of time, we can look at P without the desire to PMO. However I would proceed with caution. Over time those old p to pmo pathways can easily be reestablished. I wouldn't recommend continuing to look at it. Just my opinion looking at P brings nothing loving or uplifting into our lives. It can only hurt. Even if you don't Pmo your putting that poison in your mind. But with that being said you have made some amazing progress in all the many areas of your life.

    Much love bro.

    One day at a time.
  9. Gone fishing

    Gone fishing Active Member

    There have been guys with over 700 days who have fallen into that trap.

    Porn without masturbation now, really?
  10. Oneway

    Oneway Active Member

    I think I was too blunt in my comment. Sorry for that. Not my intention to be insultive if you were referring to me.

    It just makes me really nervous when guys with respectable streaks of freedom watch porn (even without MO). I don't understand it. Isn't watching porn the root of our problems? Doesn't it eventually lead to PMO also?

    I am really curious about your motives. Were you testing yourself or was it something you just slid into doing? I find myself wondering if I'll be in the same situation should I get as far as you have.
  11. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Proceeding with caution.
  12. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!


    You're my hero. For real. You have a friend for life.

    Some of us have more to lose than others. Plus, I learned the hard way decades ago that those who come here to scorn others, never really had the problem in the first place. Believe it or not, they're lying about ever having the problem, for psychiatric reasons. I know this sounds bizarre.

    No true sufferer would ever discourage another sufferer's progress, however small. Each of us knows the unfathomable value of even miniscule progress.

    Nine days porn free. 13 days rage free.

    Last edited: Dec 9, 2016
  13. Gone fishing

    Gone fishing Active Member

    Glad to see you are staying away from porn. Nothing truly good can come from porn.
  14. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Yo. Glad to be alive.
  15. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    Ditto Bro. You been walking with me pretty much since day 1 on this forum and I'm forever grateful for your presence on here man. Its been an incredibly difficult, yet rewarding journey and I'm blessed to have you along for the journey.

    Much love always man.

    One day at a time...
  16. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    We adopted a four year old yellow Labrador. This is the first time I've owned an inside pet. It's long overdue.

    Enjoying life.
  17. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    Merry Christmas G, my brother. We practically started this thing at the same time... Very grateful for your friendship along the way...

    One day at a time...
  18. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Love my new four year old yellow Lab. He has played a big role in our having a Merry Christmas.

    Love to all.
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  19. Gabriel1960

    Gabriel1960 Self-Actualization Rocks!!!

    Sometimes the desire to PMO is so strong, it brings tears to my eyes. It is what it is.

    Love to all.
  20. Musicman 2.0

    Musicman 2.0 This is not a sprint, but rather a marathon...

    I feel you on that bro... It is what it is...

    One day at a time...

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