I'm on 35 days of no PMO. I started watching porn around age 12 and started masturbating at age 15, I'm 24 now. When I first starting masturbating to porn, my addiction wasn't that bad since I had limited use to a computer and shared it with my whole family. But around the age of 18 I got my own computer and that's when my addiction took a turn for the worse. I was viewing porn 5, 6 hours a day, masturbating 4 to 5 times a day. This was when I was in the military and had my own place, after I was discharged I went home and wasn't able to view porn as much as I use too. My addiction has never been consistent, there's always been a few months when I had the place to myself and would just view porn all day, but then I got my own apartment I know now the power of my addiction. My porn viewing spiked over the summer, and probably was the worst since I started looking at porn. I would wake up masturbate, once, twice, sleep, wake up and masturbate one or two times more. My pornography addiction was made worst by a marijuana addiction. I would smoke 50-100 bucks worth of weed a week, I liked to view pornography while high, because it made me feel like I was actually having intercourse with the female on screen. Over the summer brain has changed because of my addictions, I felt it. My concentration fell, I almost when completely crazy, mood swings, failed 6 classes in the last year. I have a very addictive personality, I've been addicted to video games, internet, female flirtation, porn, alcohol, and marijuana. It runs in my family, my sister has been addiction to heroin, my father is addicted to cigarettes, coffee, and may have been addicted to drugs as well. I also have an ongoing anxiety problem, which I have been seeing a psychologist for years for. I'm a very handsome guy, I've been told I should be a model, I'm not trying to sound egotistical here, but I've been so insecure for years that I've never had a girlfriend or had sex. I've had plenty of female friends, been on plenty of dates, but I've never felt comfortable with myself. Maybe it was because I was sexual harassed by girls and even some of the guys growing up, or maybe it was because my addictive personality. But I'm now realizing how my addiction feeds into my insecurity. I'm a strong willed person, I'm on day 35 and haven't relapsed. My life has been so shitty for so long, that not masturbating or looking at porn isn't going to do anything to me, I've been through way worst shit. But this is the biggest challenge so far, breaking my addictive habits is going to be the hardest, my strength comes from my life experience I have to remember that. Everyday little by little I'm feeling a little bit better. Smarter, stronger, more energy, little by little. I'm noticing how I'm viewing things differently, it can't be described only experienced. Maybe, my thoughts are less cynical, I've become such a cynic thanks to MJ and porn. I'm so glad I found yourbrainonporn.com, I always knew something had to be wrong with how I was conducting myself, I just never would have guessed it was porn.