Hello. This is my first entry to my journal. I discovered porn around the age of 9 and kept it a secret. Around age 12, my parents had a talk with me about how masturbation and porn use are both acceptable and natural things to do. I am 15 now, and had a single moment of clarity a while back on an accidental 4 day streak and somehow consciously tied it to porn/masturbation. I thought I was alone. I am here now and am hoping to start to be more successful in my future NoFap attempts. Today is my 2nd day of no PMO and I hope to journal each day with my progress. Thank you.
Thank you for your messages. I enjoyed reading your footer -Luke- End of day 4: Feeling good This is a good streak. For Monday-Wednesday, I am out of the house and busy all day. It's always Thursday-Sunday that I am home and relapse. Let's keep going.
End of day 5: Still feeling good Serious storms happening, school closed for today, but I am still on top of my PMO game. Nothing new to report, just am not liking stoichiometry at the moment.
End of day 6: Going strong The hard days are ahead. Thursday and Friday will keep me on my toes. I know I can do it.
End of day 7: Still going, but feeling different. I believe that due to the lack of porn, I have been replacing that dopamine spike with other things. I watched YouTube all day as well as Monty Python's Life of Brian. Very funny, but I didn't get any work done. Because the dopamine doesn't care what the stimuli is, I am simply replacing porn with something else.
Day 8: I forgot to update, but still going! I was quite unproductive today, which sucks, but I feel better today and I believe my unproductiveness was simply the lack of dopamine, hence unproductive = low/no motivation. I will continue!
Day 9: Great day, well, not so much in terms of productivity, once again. While I remain successful in my no PMO efforts, I still have been lacking in productivity. I can only hope tomorrow will be filled with work, especially given that I have several assignments due on this day. I must prevail.
Day 1: Feeling not so great I am pretty disappointed with myself but I will continue. I had a 14 day streak.
Don't be disappointed look at this as a learning experience, many people relapse, I did a month ago, try to go longer this time you could make it 90 days
