My Journal: Clarity

Discussion in 'Ages -19' started by No_Fapper, Mar 11, 2023.

  1. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Hello. This is my first entry to my journal. I discovered porn around the age of 9 and kept it a secret. Around age 12, my parents had a talk with me about how masturbation and porn use are both acceptable and natural things to do. I am 15 now, and had a single moment of clarity a while back on an accidental 4 day streak and somehow consciously tied it to porn/masturbation. I thought I was alone. I am here now and am hoping to start to be more successful in my future NoFap attempts.

    Today is my 2nd day of no PMO and I hope to journal each day with my progress.

    Thank you.
    -Luke- likes this.
  2. Vampire Hunter D

    Vampire Hunter D New Member

    I am 19 with pied I hope we both succeed with our recovery
  3. -Luke-

    -Luke- Well-Known Member

    Welcome to the forum and thumbs up for figuring this out at such a young age!
  4. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Thank you for your messages. I enjoyed reading your footer -Luke-

    End of day 4: Feeling good
    This is a good streak. For Monday-Wednesday, I am out of the house and busy all day. It's always Thursday-Sunday that I am home and relapse. Let's keep going.
  5. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    End of day 5: Still feeling good

    Serious storms happening, school closed for today, but I am still on top of my PMO game. Nothing new to report, just am not liking stoichiometry at the moment.
  6. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    End of day 6: Going strong

    The hard days are ahead. Thursday and Friday will keep me on my toes. I know I can do it.
  7. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    End of day 7: Still going, but feeling different.

    I believe that due to the lack of porn, I have been replacing that dopamine spike with other things. I watched YouTube all day as well as Monty Python's Life of Brian. Very funny, but I didn't get any work done. Because the dopamine doesn't care what the stimuli is, I am simply replacing porn with something else.
  8. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Day 8: I forgot to update, but still going!

    I was quite unproductive today, which sucks, but I feel better today and I believe my unproductiveness was simply the lack of dopamine, hence unproductive = low/no motivation. I will continue!
  9. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Day 9: Great day, well, not so much in terms of productivity, once again.

    While I remain successful in my no PMO efforts, I still have been lacking in productivity. I can only hope tomorrow will be filled with work, especially given that I have several assignments due on this day. I must prevail.
  10. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Day 10: Going strong.

    Still going. I got a bunch of work done, still not everything.
  11. No_Fapper

    No_Fapper New Member

    Day 1: Feeling not so great

    I am pretty disappointed with myself but I will continue. I had a 14 day streak.
  12. Vampire Hunter D

    Vampire Hunter D New Member

    Don't be disappointed look at this as a learning experience, many people relapse, I did a month ago, try to go longer this time you could make it 90 days

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