#day 1 Hi! It feels ill-mannered to begin my journey on this forum focused on myself and not on other people, but I hope it's fine to be a little self-centered in a journal. I expect to be able to be supportive too soon Long story short, I've been aware of a porn addiction for years. I have started consumption early in my teens. I think I'm trying to quit since around 2014 - and my life has certainly improved a lot since then. But I still relapse every month or two. It's clear to me that I want to stop, and this journal is a sort of commitment to take it "more seriously" this time. So far in my recorded history, my best streak is 108 days without porn, which sounds ridiculously low. This time I'm hopefully going to beat it on April 23rd 2020 When it comes to current relapse, I fucked up. I mean every relapse is a fuck-up, but now ahead of me I have a week full of meetings, social situations, some public speaking. I'll probably avoid some of it, but I can't cancel everything. I can only hope that this time I'll have some luck and it won't be one of those hard recoveries where sleeplessness, depression, itching, brain fog and discomfort would dominate the entire week or two. Wish me luck Thanks for reading and have a good day!