(USA, 61M) About two years ago, I began having problems with ED, DE, and anorgasmia. My research on it led me here and to YBOP. Everyone’s journey to this point is personal to them. I’ll tell you my story which is difficult and embarrassing to rehash. But oh well this is the place to do it right? A little back story. My porn use began as a young teenager, tame by today’s standards: Sears catalog underwear/lingerie section, Playboy, Hustler and such. The advent of the internet brought easier access but it was not an issue for me. I’m 61, a widower for five years, and have always had significant stress in my life, especially in the last eight years. After my wife passed away five years ago I found that grief caused a lot of issues for some time. Prior to my wife becoming ill eight years ago, we enjoyed a fairly normal sex life. With her cancer, sex tapered off to nothing quite quickly for obvious reasons. My porn use increased as a result up until perhaps her last six months. At that point, I had neither the desire nor energy to fap or consume much porn. Different priorities as I was her sole caregiver. About eight months after she passed, I went to a urologist about my lack of libido and erectile issues. Bloodwork showed low testosterone but not so low as to require intervention. So my issues were not organic. Doc prescribed daily low dose Cialis which helped. My insurance only covered 5 pills a month and was prohibitively expensive otherwise. So I found an online solution for its generic. I used it fairly successfully off and on, primarily during periods of high stress. Single now and having been forced into an early retirement (sort of) I had a lot of time on my hands. I did have occasional sex but it was inconsistent and unfulfilling. So my porn use increased. A lot. Eventually, I would have multiple tabs open on my computer, two monitors, and my tv all at once. I used Pornhub, other porn sites and DVDs, sometimes several hours a day. Eventually, I had ~60GBs of it on my computer, all vanilla sex but some pretty raunchy. Eight months ago I moved and found a new community and was happier and had a much better frame of mind than I’d had in many years. A new General Practitioner with a weight loss clinic helped me get motivated and I’ve lost more than 60 lbs. from my 6’4” frame. I hoped my new fitness and better health would help my flagging sexual performance. Nope. I started having DE and anorgasmia issues on occasion. I noticed it in fapping, oral, vaginal and anal sex. It progressed to the point where fapping to porn was the only way to cum, sometimes using toys and prone masturbation. Even fapping to porn became more difficult to the point where the death grip and speed would cause pain and abrasions. I grew up being used to NOT using lube while fapping. When I did have sex I was able to get erect, though maybe only 80% hard (even with low dose generic Cialis). Stopping foreplay to put on a condom, my erection would begin to fade and eventually lose it completely just before or shortly after penetration. It left us both embarrassed and disappointed. Even trying to finish with oral it was difficult to get hard again and of course, I couldn’t cum at all. This occurred several times before I suspected the possibility of excessive porn use was to blame. So I found these sites, read a lot of information and testimonials and decided I needed to stop PMO in order to become sexually healthy again. I started a week ago (11-22-2019) with an initial goal of 60-90 days no PMO. I deleted ALL the porn on my computers, got rid of the DVDs and toys, and unsubscribed from websites and some Reddit threads. So far no major issues. Still, my mind and hands wander and morning wood and nocturnal erections are firm and inviting. I’ve managed to stop before anything progressed. I know this is a long post, but I wanted to bare it all. Reading many other posts I’ve realized my struggles are not unique. I know I’ll be able to get back a healthy sex life without ED meds. In time.