Today I'm officially divorced as of this morning. My marriage was an unhappy one and we both had our faults but a lot of our problems were because of my PMi addiction. The beginning of the end was when she found me in the bathroom looking at shemale P. Since then she lost all respect for me and subsequently never trusted me again as I really didn't seek help for my problem. It wasn't until she left me and filed for divorce that I actually started getting serious about changing. I feel awful about how I hurt her. I never want to do that to another person, ever. I want to have a healthy relationship with a woman, free of secrets about my addiction. This is a bittersweet moment for me, because now I can start over but I have the residual guilt and self loathing that will probably follow me for the rest of my life. I just don't know how I can't get over that.