Day 115 Most of the day was ok. I went out clubbing on my own and stayed late. Some parts were nice, I made friends with people and danced to good music. However, it still felt like I was missing something, conventions that everyone seems to know but I'm at a loss to read. Alas, I hope that will get better with practice.
Day 116 An ok day. Felt a bit tired in the morning, had a really nice evening, now feel slightly down, emotionally drained.
Day 117 Actually had a nice day. Went to the gym in the morning, had lots of good food, did work, and played mini golf with some friends in the evening. Felt quite excitable.
Day 118 Felt a bit strange today. Had a good workout in the morning and felt excitable, but felt a bit out of it in the evening. Odd day.
Day 120 Definitely have some sort of a cold, quite feverish today and didn't sleep well. I did some revision and had a few meetings, still a bit out of it.
Day 121 Fairly standard day, had an exam in the morning which went ok. Felt very bad at night with lots of harmful thoughts, but luckily got through it in part with a friend's help.
Day 122 You're right Krebs - I should have from a few days ago! It turns out it may not be a cold after all, but covid instead - I'm waiting for a test result at the moment. Otherwise a nice day, baked some brownies and went for a walk. Feeling tired but hopefully getting better.
Day 123 The test came back positive, so I'm in isolation with covid. Not a great way to spend Christmas, but alas. Felt largely ok today; baked some more brownies.
Day 124 It's not ideal but hopefully should be mild as I'm vaccinated, thanks Krebs. I felt shortness of breath during the day and felt bad in the afternoon but otherwise ok.
Day 125 A good day. Still running out of breath easily, but did a good amount of work and felt largely positive, even excitable at times.
Day 126 Another good day. Last half day at work, in the afternoon I did a lot of stretching and ate some amazing food. Quite relaxed throughout the day.
Day 127 Slightly worse day. I woke up to some building works, I've been struggling with acid reflux, and felt heavy in the afternoon. Did not spiral though, so some progress.
Day 128 Decent Christmas Eve. Had a call with my family, dinner with my housemate, and relaxed. I have so many people who care about me and I need to remember and appreciate that.
Day 129 Had a nice Christmas day. Went for a long walk, did lots of cooking with my housemate, and watched some Netflix. I'm also keen to meet more new people in the coming year, so I've downloaded a few dating apps. Interesting times ahead!
Day 132 I'm having a nice holiday break, completely slipped my mind to update here. I have felt reinvigorated - I am out of isolation, I am reading interesting things, I am feeling mostly stable. Now and then jealousy and anxiety come, but I'm getting better at recognising them without having to act on them.
Day 134 Again largely a nice day. I've been having vivid dreams. I went for a run and saw a play today.
