I'm starting day 6 clean, but it hasn't been easy this time. Last night I was alone in the house, and just wanted to "unwind" to some pictures. I did not. Listened to a bunch of "reaction" videos on YouTube. Mainly young people who have never heard classic rock songs. Kind of fun, depending on the reaction. I'm going to be here working most of the day, then off to the GF's for a quiet Halloween in. Maybe a restaurant first, but we'll see. Anyway, the tug is there as I type this, and I'm writing this to give myself some resolve. Unlike countless times in the past, I need to follow through and not take the act of journaling as some twisted excuse to peek. That is indeed a strange phenomenon.