Checking in. So far, I'm making December nice and clean. I plan on following through with that. In another week, will leave for my getaway with the fiancee. I talked to a therapist the other day, and will do so again later this week. It was helpful. He had a good metaphor for how performance anxiety can operate: it can be like squeezing a handful of sand. The harder you try to contain it, the more it slips from your grasp. This is true of so many things. We tie ourselves up in knots about all kinds of things we really need to just let go of.