This post turned out to be a little longer than expected, but the last couple paragraphs are a summary of the full post, in case you want the short version. I turned 30 on 23rd of February 2019. It’s time to make a new thread, which will in theory encapsulate and describe a set of methods and ideas, to help take my recovery to the next level. I have been recovering for about 6 years now. Through this period I have made some major improvements to the way I live my life. When I realised I had this addiction I was in a very bad place. Since then I have made several major changes (in some instances these changes have been incredibly difficult), and as a result I find myself in a happier, more stable position in my life. I still have a long way to go. I have flash backs to previous moments in my life that make me cringe, and if I’m honest make me feel the depression again. I’m sure I will go into these at some point in the future, but if you want to know more I have linked my previous threads in my signature. I may also add links to this post in the future. I have just made it past the 3 week mark of being clean (by clean I mean; no PMO, no MO, no peeking at anything that is related to P or P-subs, no social media (apart from work related because I do a bit of marketing in my job) and only O when being physical with my GF). This is really good for me and I have not had a streak like this for about 9 months. I had been stuck in a routine that would mean I lasted a week, maybe 2 then I would peek at P or P-subs which would lead me to edging which would then eventually lead to a PMO, and this would repeat every 2 to 3 weeks. I put my recent successes down to 2 things; 1, the fact I have turned 30 means I had a definite mental effort to ‘be a man’ and try harder. 2, I found a new blocker. The combination of the 2 has been great. Not only am I more motivated but I have set my blocker up so even if I do ‘slip’ it is very difficult for me to access things I don’t want to access. The blocker is called ‘freedom’ I have paid £15 for a one year subscription. It is well worth the £15 as I relate that to £15 to not feel shit about myself which I would pay way more for on shit I don’t need. In the past I have used k9 and I have used DNS blockers and web browser extensions such as ‘stay focused’. All of these did not work for me. They either did not block sites 100% of the time which meant I would go into what I call ‘testing mode’. This would lead me into the mind set of “if the site is blocked I will get on my with my day and ‘be good’, but if it’s not then at least I tried but it’s fair game to go and relapse. This was a terrible attitude and I’m glad to say that with ‘freedom’ installed on all my machines this has not been a problem because it just works. Another benefit of this blocker is that I can self moderate; I can add sites to a block list that is already in effect. This was a feature of k9 but I found it didn’t work very well. In addition to the above, I also try my best to practice the NoArousal method, exercise as much as I can (without over doing it), eat as well as is reasonable, not use social media in my personal life (it just makes me depressed), no shit TV, be physical with my gf as much as I can, and try to spend my free time bettering my life through learning new things in trying different activities. Now all of this sounds great, but the truth is I have my down days. I have dark thoughts and I feel extremely negative at times. In the past therapy has helped me so I am going to find a new therapist (the old one is just too far away now where I live), and do either weekly or every other week. Iv had three previous therapists, the first one was just because I had no drive or focus and it’s got me from finishing uni, having no idea what I wanted to do to getting a job and moving out of my parents house. Then my second one was specifically for P addiction. The third was because I feel into a deep depression, she helped me quite drugs and as a result get out of the group of friends I had that were bad for me, and get back to feeling a bit better about myself. Sometimes something will trigger memories that are painful, recently I had a night that was pretty bad, so before it gets worse I will sort this out. I am going to keep moving forwards, stay away from P, keep using my blocker, try to exercise consistently and be a loving and supportive partner to my gf. I keep a spreadsheet of my relapses, so will add the 2019 link to my singnature for anyone that is interested. Feel free to ask any questions, good luck everyone in your journeys! Peace!