Hello everyone, nice to be here. This journal is for me to reflect on my feelings and relapses. English is not my native language so please bare with that. I've been trying to quit porn for a long time and had ups and downs, but I never learned how to deal with shame and relapses. These days I'm not focused or thinking straight. And I really don't have the confidence to move forward. I've treated every relapse as a defeat and didn't look at them as learning experiences. But this time I want do things the right way. I know what's ahead and I know I've to be patient.