I'm not sure how "normal" my experiences are as of late. I'm pretty much totally out of PMO and masturbation. These things might happen now and then, but I am fairly consistent with being able to make it at least a month between PMOs and a couple weeks between MOs, even during stressful and emotionally turbulent times. I'm no longer so much an addict as an occasional user. Through either a lack of confidence and mental health or the reality of a social standing which I can't accept I haven't been having sex with more attractive women since getting off PMO. The difference though, is that even these women, which I considered to be beneath me, would have dumped me in the past after a couple months and I would have wined to them about it afterwards. Now I am in the position of breaking hearts. I have sex with them a few times, but get out of the situation (not always as confidently and assertively as desired) quickly because it doesn't feel right to me. I'm not sure to what extent I might find them less interesting or desirable because of my past porn use, but I do think that my longing for something else is genuine. I have had several women think I was "a keeper" after getting off PMO, but I was terrified of getting stuck with them. They raved about the sex and told their friends that I was good in the sack. I don't know how "normal" this is. People do go for mr. or mrs. right now when mr. or mrs. right is not available, but I seem to get the sense that it is not common for people to consistently get into situations where they are not totally convinced that there is a mutual attraction. Maybe I am just so used to dulling my emotions that I am lacking an understanding of how much emotional investment life requires. I do get the sense that I have a lot of catching up to do with social and emotional intelligence. A lot of people on the forum are really focused on just staying away from porn, but even when that is out of the way it can still be a rocky road.