3- I am still here. I did not post this weekend because I was so tired. That is not really an excuse, but anyway I am feeling much better. I will talk soon about the relapse. I really wanted to make it through the travels. If I look at my major relapses over the last year (those that were not just trying to get out of the pit, but really after being away from porn for a few weeks), they are almost all from traveling. It was extremely helpful to leave my laptop at home, and I will continue to do this. It is my stupid phone. Of course it is really my choice to use the phone as a PMO tool, but it would help if I just went back to an old school phone. Anyway I'll try to update more tomorrow. Today I spent most of the day trying to play catch-up from last week. @Joshua Shea this is an interesting idea. I did in fact go through a period around September when I told myself it would be ok if I relapsed to MO with no porn. This proved to be difficult still. Although the MO relapse pit (for me) seems to be much more shallow, it is still very difficult to keep MO under control. Somehow I feel like if I could look at all the porn I wanted to but just not MO, I would still be in trouble. I have never tried to only MO. Maybe sometime I will try this.