Merton's reboot log

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by Merton, Oct 30, 2018.

  1. Merton

    Merton Well-Known Member

    Day 29: I haven’t posted for a few days because of travel. It has been going well. I have had some pretty intense sex dreams but I have not acted out. I think porn free radio has helped a lot. My phone is on screen time from 9 pm to 7 am and I am listening to porn free radio every day. Tomorrow will be the 30 day mark.

    @Ereignis yea it is great. My favorites are 5 (travel), Craig Perra (16-17), single (18), celebrity (20), 12 step (35), motivation (36), lived with a porn Star (46-47).

    @Intothewild89 thanks for all the support man, and it is great to see you here! Keeping a list like what you mentioned sounds like a great idea. These rationalizations can come up and get you at the worst times. Let’s keep at it and beat this thing!
     
  2. Merton

    Merton Well-Known Member

    Day 30: I made it to day 30. It is good! I credit a lot of it to following porn free radio.

    Still traveling but I come home tomorrow. Also I will have managed to take a week long trip alone and not act out.
     
  3. occams_razor

    occams_razor Active Member

    I'll definitely be checking out porn free radio at some point!
     
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  4. Merton

    Merton Well-Known Member

    Day 32: this is the first time since the winter that I have broken 30 days. Again I really have porn free radio to thank. I also slept 6 nights in a hotel by myself without acting out. Things are going well.

    @occams_razor indeed it is good!
     
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  5. Living

    Living Active Member

    Way to go. And also, do thank yourself, because in the end it is you that has done this!
     
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  6. Eternity

    Eternity Patience

    Nicely done. Hopefully the radio will get you through this.
     
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  7. Merton

    Merton Well-Known Member

    Day 0: Unfortunately after writing yesterday about how well I was doing, I got triggered today by some messages I sent myself (ridiculous!) in order to relapse some time ago. I ended up acting out. Although this is not the sort of behavior I want to enact, I feel like I'm moving in the right direction. The last streak was 23, then I had only one day of bad behavior, and this streak was 32. So I'm going to commit to continue to move upward. I will listen to a bunch of the radio today to get back on track.

    @Eternity and @Living thanks so much for the support! Back on the horse ...
     
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  8. occams_razor

    occams_razor Active Member

    Thirty-two steps forward, one step back!

    Not bad!
     
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