I've started my journey a few weeks ago. I do think that keeping a journal might be helpfull to me and hopefully informative, motivating and entertaining to you. As I am not a native English speaker there might be some grammar and/or spelling errors in my journal. Just try to control the urge to point them out, with all of you resisting urges here this shouldn't be any problem I imagine. My story: 29, male. The last year or so I grew an increasing feeling that I just wasn't living life to the fullest. Mind you, I haven't had any mayor issues, a lack of friends or unsupporting family. From the outside it seemed fine. But to me it just felt okayish... just that. I felt I lacked passion in areas of my life. A couple of months ago I lost my job and I deciced that it might as well grab the opportunity to find out what does make me tick. My focus at first was at my career but I quickly found out that I had to look further. In talks with a counselor I discovered that I was so rationalizing any issues I had just because I wouldn't allow myself to hurt by my emotions. I just didn't have any mayor highs or lows. During those months I opened up more to family and friends and I am getting more aware of my emotions and allowing them to actually be there instead of rationalizing them. Hello feelings... While I saw improvement in a lot of things I still wasn't happy with my sexual life. During my years at university I had a few hookups and one night stands but nothing more then that. After university and getting a job I had just one fling in about 4 years. I did however ended up in the friendszone a lot... I think of myself as a rather social guy and I don't have any issues talking to people or women for that matter. Until I had to show myself and or my emotions. It wasn't till a year ago that it actually started bothering me. I would just rationalize that I am not a seducer and I'd just as well enjoy women as friends instead of possibly scaring them away. I came onto this site, the TEDx-talks and YBOP through a forum which i was casually browsing. One of the threads had a list of people abstainging from P or PMO. I actually had been thinking of abstaining so any O would had to be with someone. Just as means to overcome my anxiety, not because I thought PMO was bad. After two days of reading and watching clips I found so many stories more or less resembling my situation. So maybe there was more to PMO than I originally thought. PMO history: I realised I've been M'ing since i was 13 or 14. First just by the sensation and fantasy, and around 18 years old i went from pics till somewhere in my twenties where highspeed internet and youtube-like sites popped up. Up till a few weeks ago I mixed P with fantasy. Over the years I've on average (P)MO'ed between once or twice a day. Some days I MO'ed a couple of times, others I just went to sleep but no more than a two or three days at max between MO's. IF a PC was available I would usually choose that over fantasy. With the years I found that erections based on just feeling wouldn't last very long and i turned more towars P and fantasy. My erections were not as hard as with touch but hey they got me off... so why bother? ED history: I've had some sexual encounters with varying results. I had a few encounters where I had trouble staying hard. I do believe it wasn't as much ED as it was performance anxiety. Being with a girl for the first time sometimes made me so focuse on performing that I was so aware of any shifts in arrousal that it affected me. Encounters where I was just enjoying myself I had no problem cumming. That said I may just be wrong here... Time might tell I actually started this challenge not because of ED but because of the fact that i feel that PMO is holding me back on enjoying life more due to it's effects on the brain. I want a change and maybe PMO is one of the sollutions. I have no clue if or what the effects on me might be. I might even be possible that I overestimate any gains but even so I'm just very curious. Nothing more to do then experiencing it myself... I'm setting my target at 90 days no PMO, although my actually target is being able to see a change in enjoying my life for the better. The 90 days is just a tool.