So...I did it. I will not be member of hall of fame . And ...generally I regret it. I watched tv and some woman are very hot and desire to man, and they go to fuck, they started kissing touching etc. She sit on him. But he told : I can;t. My dick started stand up I thought: But I can And I sit at my chair and started masturbate. Firstly it feel amazing. Like in films. I started to feel desire when I started did it ...Feeling was very clear and after few second I started think : think about nothing , just touch. And I still feel great. I thought that my orgasm also will be good.....BUT it wasn;t. And it is really stresfull. The orgasm last long but ...fuck....it feel bad.really bad. I didn;t feel sth . This sth I feel every time when I watch porn. Sth what make me happy and make my masturbation succesful. After masturbation I felt little around balls etc. But I fastly realised that if I can had great orgasm every time I masturbate to porn. And I hadn;t this orgasm after 86 days with no masturbation. The real problem was porn, or depression. ANd it don;t let me gain successful orgasm. Any comments, any ideas? Sb have similar? REally interested.