Saville it feels like you are a close friend! Thank you for you’re honesty. It is really helping. I am doing all the things you say. Reading books about addiction, personal problems, walking, going to the gym. But I don’t have any patience! I just want to be at the finish. But I am realizing more that maybe there is no finish. There is only the proces and I have to learn to enjoy it! My wife she is just wonderful! I will be strong, I am going the things in and around the house. I wil do it! thx @Saville !!