I’m starting out here in what feels like a long time but really is not. I hate saying this but I’m not exactly a big fan of my wife. God bless her but she is well over 300 pounds, tired a lot, and I resent her. Last year we had sex and coming inside a woman is way better. I fantasize about being with other women I know. It’s hard. All in all I’m just a guy that really wants to get laid. Tempted to go back out of frustration.