Okay, so now I have to test my commitment and come to a better definition of success. I did not post anything here over the past couple of days due to lots of family events and commitments (graduations, visiting family, etc.). However, I also did not PMO. According to what I said above, I should not consider these last two days successful. But, at the same time, I feel good that I was true to my goal of avoiding P, so I still really feel on track. So do I reset the counter to zero and commit to success having to include journaling? Or do I focus on recognizing the fact that I have not engaged in PMO? At this point, I think I'm going to focus on avoiding the addiction rather than the journaling as the success. While that may seem like backtracking and letting myself off the hook, I'm taking this position partially as a tactical maneuver. Setting the bar of success at the level of avoiding PMO AND ALSO journaling makes it somewhat harder to reach. I can avoid PMO, forget to journal, and then consider it a relapse. As we all know (I think), it's often those failures that make us resign ourselves and dive back into the addiction, saying "Well I can't avoid it so I might as well indulge." We all hate the voice. And I want to avoid that voice. I don't want the act of not journaling to take me to that place of failure where I allow myself to indulge. Am I kidding myself? It honestly feels right what I'm thinking but I could use another perspective. Am I just trying to go too easy on myself here?