I jumped in after her! Relieved some of the stress with Jamie ! Then to hot tub Jamie also. I ordered in pizza which Heather didn't know and she chomped then Jamie to bed and full body massage for Heather and the n sleepy time! Full day of work in am.
LOL. Sometimes that's a great answer to an obvious question. However, have you considered just saying to her "yes, Heather, you are my one and only." Maybe you do tell her that, so I'm not assuming anything. But, I know with myself it was always easier to crack a joke than to be real. Because I found it hard to be real with my feelings it was also hard to know exactly what I felt.
Saville, sometimes i think you have been reading my mail. i am also the joker with my wife when she gets serious. fear of intimacy is what i believe i have. never been intimate with anyone-if they knew what i think or what i do, they would hate me. it is always with the masks i wear for every occasion. working on being real and being honest. a lifetime of living in disguise and putting on a happy face is going to take time. i am not getting any younger, the time to do it is now, no matter the outcome. it is self-preservation. i have never let anyone in. maybe that is why i hurt so much and use this filthy crutch to ameliorate my self-loathing. anyway enough of my pity--- party. just feeling a little sentimental today. that is a good thing, i am feeling something. thanks for letting me ramble on.
The space next to where I have the massage office is empty ! I have become quite friends with the owner ! He asked me if I wanted it said he would make me a great deal! Hmm ? It's 2500 sq ft ! Hmm? ! Want to hear the deal-- see him next week he is a client -- I have an idea maybe ? Shit, I always have ideas ! Mostly unrealistic ones!!!! Hahaha !
Have 3 appointments this am---- greedy Iam LOL! Need the $ the 2 1/2 weeks with no work excuse of hands set me back signicantly ! Also, think I may have lost 3 clients--- oh well ! Good thing I can dance ! Heather and I going to dance in a competition- --I PLAN ON WINNING-its at new club w e are gonna dan ce at-- arrogant what t he hell ! Heather was teaching Jamie how to kizomba-- that is before she became snotty ! Dont know about now? Hav e to ask her---
Judge Heather works for today stop by his wife li es Jamie , Jamie works minutes for idiots to see ! Heather so embarrassed ! That little girl is starting to piss me off BIG TIME !
Usually busy, last few days super busy 14 hr days! Jamie calm Ia m trying to be! Sorry y'all don't need to hear this crap !
I was thinking how you tell members that you can accomplish your goals ! if one can do it another can !
Hopefully she will SAY YES! NO YOU'RE A ASSHOLE ! Hahaha ! I called Crabbies to begin setting things up they are excited never bad a proposal before ! I h ave to ask Jamie after I ask Heather ! A n ew chapter of my life which I never expected my kIds are bubbling with joy
