PMO free 93 days. Then 106 days. Now I have acted out 6 times this last week? P, M, and O. What's up? So what? I don't care. Once fallen, always fallen? It seems. NoFap is impossible. I am tired of it for now. I will say, 106 days was amazing. Then I woke up in the middle of the night with a raging hard on. Raging. Had to get up, stumble in the dark so as not to wake up my wife to our hall bath, and M. Boy did I. Enough that I penalized myself. I had lost my streak. What the? Then I gave in and watched P several times in the last week. And M'd and O'd. Back to square one again. Wow. This sucks. Couldn't handle the raging hard on in the middle of the night. It was too much. I am really wanting this to work. I believe the benefits would be marvelous. I thought I was on a roll. I was really going to say goodbye to PMO for good this time. But I fell again. I would like to kick PMO out for good. I really would. Haven't been able to make it happen. No one said it was going to be easy. I know.