First of all, @Saville : You are very kind. Thank you. I don't hear that from people very much. Your post is like an oasis. You also make a good point about the negative self-talk. When I was young, I was bullied in part for being nerdy - the smartest kid in the room. As a defense, I developed a habit of being self-deprecating. But lately I've confusing that old habit with truth-telling. I'll work on it. @Caoimhín : Thank you, too. You're right. My work has not been good for my mental health. It's hard to let this particular situation go, though, since it's money my family needs. I'm trying my best to be businesslike about it. We'll see. So, slept 7 1/2 hours last night. That's 3 straight nights of more than 6! That's rare for me. Better still, though I woke up (at 2:30, of course....) I was up only long enough to pee. I fell right back to sleep, no booze! This, by the way, is what I am going to commit to here in terms of my booze use (booze uze?): I'm going to stop drinking when I wake up in the middle of the night. The fact is, it hasn't really helped much for quite a while now. I've been using it more to ease the anxiety I feel about being up and about what's keeping me up. If I stop drinking in the middle of the night, I'll likely cut my alcohol consumption in half - or close to it. That's a good first step. (or second step... the first was giving up vodka last fall). If I can't sleep, then I'll work. I've been saying I'd do this for a while, but it's time to commit, like I did with PMO. Hopefully, I'll have as much success. Looking forward to a future with a dryer me, here in the middle of day 94.