Re: Starting again Hi, I'm on day 4 now. These last 4 days I have had terrible insomnia and tension headaches. When I wake up I can't help but touch myself to thoughts of fantasy for about 10 minutes, and then the rational side of my brain kicks in!
Re: Starting again oh good, Im going on day one tomorrow and im ready to start fresh.do u have web filters etc?
Day 7 It has been smooth sailing so far and I am going strong. However I am expecting strong withdrawal symptoms for the next week at least. I have a job interview later today. The stress preparing for and during the interview, and the possibility of rejection are MAJOR TRIGGERS for me. Hey, I am using K9 and I keep the password in an ice block in the freezer. I think someone here suggested doing that and it's working great so far. I have to do a lot of studying on the laptop, so without filters I'm screwed.
So I got outside the main building but I didn't go in. My mind was racing with anxious thoughts, sweaty palms. There is no way I would have communicated effectively. FUCK THESE FUCKING WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS. I ain't gonna let this shit beat me. Right now I feel fucking hopeless, guilt, shameful. Maybe I should wait until day 21 until I start going to interviews again, but that makes me feel even more fucking hopeless. I am a worthless *BEEP* who was put on this earth to leech from it.
"I am using K9 and I keep the password in an ice block in the freezer." Brilliant! "Right now I feel fucking hopeless, guilt, shameful. Maybe I should wait until day 21 until I start going to interviews again, but that makes me feel even more fucking hopeless. I am a worthless cunt who was put on this earth to leech from it." No, you're not. You are a man who has become self-aware and is actually taking steps to take control of his life and become a whole man. In this regard, you are ahead of many, many of your peers. Courage!
