If i could go back and relive my life again I would do it in a heartbeat and I would never get myself to where I am at today. I never thought that Porn can be this dangerous and it has destroyed my relationships with female. Started to watch softcore images when i was 14/15 and as time progress I got even worse. Click/search/watch/pmo that's what i do all the freaking time. Grew up in a verbally abusive family and i escape my pain by PMO and eating. I am not that over weight and i know girls would flirt with me still.... I am in my late 20s today and am still a Virgin... I am just so embarashed and ashamed because I can't get hard when it comes to having sex with a girl. I am not gay and I had many opportunity to have sex with women but I can't get hard in front of them and the only time i can get hard is when I am watching porn in the room by myself. But I've recently noticed that i lost my sex drive completely and i can't even get hard by watching porn any more. I've met a girl and i really like her... and I thank god that i ran into her but at the same time i hate myself for all the damage I've done to myself. I want to get better and i want to have a real meaning relationship with a girl I want to love fearlessly and I want to grow old without any regrets. it's been 3 days No PMO - I am having panic attacks, depressed, couldn't breath, angry, ashamed and embarrassed, crying...etc. I don't know if it's worth living any more..... Can I ever be normal again? any one had the similar situation and is now cured? Please help me i really don't know what to do any more.