Facepalm. Another false start, another reset 5 days in. Which I was going to gloss over and ignore, but found it hard to do that after your post @realness. (Which is kind of funny, although also not really.) I seem to be back up to that level of stress I was at a couple months back where I fell into a rut of relapsing after every couple of days. It's definitely an avoidance ploy. The workload is so crushing this week I don't feel like I can take the time to properly process, which is necessary to keep abstaining... but that's a lie, cos when I don't abstain, I spend more time on chasing up my fetish. So perhaps I need to come on here and think it through next time I'm urging. In any case thanks for the encouragement fellas. I'm not giving up on this.