April 8. Big relapse. I'm going to try to bounce back as quickly as I can. I somehow got a particular fetish/image in my head and started kind of obsessing over it... I ended up looking for a visually similar image online and since I couldn't find it, I ended up spending hours on the bloody thing. With eventual MO yesterday. This battle needs to be won in the "thought life" first. If I see that pattern/situation above shaping again, I need to more proactively deal with it. Intentionally and with finality.