2 days clean from P Did pretty well on the self care front in the last 2 days. I'm still trying to get back to finding some bearing and a new positive momentum as things have been, overall, pretty rocky in the last 2 weeks. I had another slip on Sunday but it followed some stressful days and also some mistakes on my part. Not that I'm excusing it but I can understand it. My "demons" are pretty hungry these days so I'm trying not to give in to they're calling while slowly trying to get out of this funk. I think that these kind of cravings come from feeling down and having our self esteem shot so if I manage to slowly get to a better place I think these kind of cravings will go down. I agree with the idea that fighting the PMO cravings or other kind of unhealthy impulsions is much easier when one gets to a better place emotionally, mainly by reconnecting, somehow, with himself. Perhaps quieting the noise a little bit out there, and finding oneself again. From that place of a better inner calm, one actually has lower levels of unhealthy cravings. Today I had a small occasion to talk to a girl I'm interested in and I didn't have the courage to do it. It was a bit frustrating afterwards. It's a bit odd though as I think she may be around 21 and I'm 31 so I don't know. But still, I don't see why I can't make friendly talk to her. Sucks I was too shy. I guess I'm too attached to looking good to her and didn't wanna take the risk to make bad small talk and ruin my image. But if one doesn't take any risks then he doesn't get what he wants.