You described very well the process of good streaks followed by relapses. I know exactly what you call the emotional motivation, I have gone through this with cigarettes many times... The first days, you are pumped up, it’s almost easy to stay away from it. Then, after a while, maybe 5 days, or 10 days, you kinda get used to it. But as soon as you have a bad day, your mind only wants it again to ease the discomfort. So you go back to it. You don’t even enjoy it, I mean, how could you... You know how bad it is for you, and even while you are doing it, your mind is telling you: you’re wrong, you’re weak, you’re hurting yourself. So you’re not even having fun (at least we kinda had fun doing it in the past). Yeah, I know what you are talking about. I’m really grateful that I am not stuck in that cycle with porn, I am on a pretty good streak right now, and it’s not really hard for me to stay away from porn. With cigarettes and sleeping pills, it’s another story... But I am really, really happy to be able to stay away from porn, I mean, porn has caused way more damage to me than anything else. It’s a delicate matter, but I will say a few words about that. While with cigarettes I repeatedly experience this cycle of emotional motivation followed by relapses, I haven’t had to go through this with porn. If I try to look at this objectively, I can only find two explanations for that. Firstly, this is my first streak after discovering YBOP and the forums. As others mentioned before, the first streak can be somewhat easier, because you’re fresh, motivated, etc. The night I discovered Reboot Nation, I read success stories from guys who had gone through similar things than me (PIED), and it had a big impact on me. I couldn’t believe what I was reading: guys who were addicted to porn just like me, and who have had PIED for years, just like me, were able to heal from it by quitting PMO for a certain period of time. Wow, I said to myself. Let’s give it a try, it would be amazing if it worked. I have had ED forever, so I had sorta given up on this, I thought it was too late for me and that my ED was not curable. So reading on Reboot Nation and YBOP was a very striking experience: what I thought was impossible was maybe possible after all. Ever since that moment, I have kept the same attitude and hopes, and I haven’t needed a lot of will to stay away from porn. I would not go as far as saying that it was an awakening, or a mystical experience, not at all. But something clicked in my mind, something switched. Maybe that’s what we have to look for. Maybe we just need to find what can turn that switch on... I believe we have to think outside the box to find it. (If you find out how to do this, let me know, cuz I’d really like to finally quit smoking, cigarettes make you stink and cough, and they’re expensive... ). Jokes aside, I think we really need to try something different when we want to get rid of an addiction. If we hit the right button, it will work. But we have to find that button. The other reason why I think I can successfully stay away from porn right now is the fact that I had pretty good streaks in the past. Those streaks happened before I heard about YBOP, they were only half-ass attempts to stay away from porn. I kept masturbating while thinking about porn stars, and would jack off on Instagram once in a while. Of course, that did not help my libido a lot, but I think it probably weakened my addiction. I remember that I had to use more will in those streaks to avoid porn. Sometimes, when I had an urge to watch porn, I would masturbate without watching porn just to get rid of the urge. As I said, it was not the best way to deal with porn addiction, but I think that these streaks partly freed me from the addiction. Then, I just needed to find YBOP to just go one step further and do this the good way. Anyway, I hope it doesn’t sound like I am lecturing you. I would never do something like that, and I am really not a model when it comes to abstinence from drugs. Also, if I remember correctly, you don’t have bad ED issues like I do, so I think it would make no sense at all for me to tell you anything about porn addiction, I mean, I probably messed up with porn more than you did (I don’t really know, but you get my point). I just wanted to share that part of my story with you, I thought there was maybe a chance it could somehow be helpful to you. Take care, man.