Just want to say that I've immensily enjoyed reading your entries both here and on other journals. Intuitively I feel the path of self kindness and self compassion is the only sustainable road to recovery, so I feel heartened seeing you come to the same conclusion. Just don't push yourself too hard. God knows you and I, and all the guys here, have been pushing ourselves way beyond our limits. For years. I think you're a very clever and generous man and I hope you'll free yourself of this monstrous addiction so that you can start enjoying life for all that you deserve.