Well I guess that's not a bad response. It is hard to imagine that the inclusion of PMO in your life is doing you any favors. But it sounds like you're in a position where if PMO was eliminated as a possibility entirely, not too terribly much would change. I have to admit I'm visiting your thread a little less as time goes on. With most of these journals, you can see a lot of insights and progress as the posts accumulate. Your posts, on the other hand, often (usually?) make it sound like you're running in circles. You just are too concerned with the here and now. You need to dig deeper into your issues to think of the changes you'll need to implement to get your life back on track. I know I have said the last two things on here before but I think they are still true. Your posts read like the pieces in the life you're trying to make don't fit, and you're just smashing them together to try and force them to, over and over, every week. I don't know if this will help you, but I think you should try and sit down for a few minutes, without distractions, and think this over. Your comments have helped me in the past, and I would like to do the same for you if I can. Your post #256 showed a little bit of promise. Maybe even some time off from this site would benefit you in breaking out of the cycle.