I’m 30 years old and single. I’m looking at my life and don’t like what I see. I think these are the 5 worst things about my life : 1 – My social anxiety 2 – My relationship with women 3 – My addictions 4 – My negative family dynamics 5 – My finances As a result of these I have low self esteem, depression, anxiety and simply do not have much joy in my life. I'm far from being the person I think I could be. If I work on these areas, my life should improve - and my well being. Porn, is one of the elemens which, if removed, should place me in a better position to deal with life. It's not the only piece of the puzzle but it's an important one and I will try to commit to effectively learning to live without it. Today was a bad day. I've PMOed twice and was on P for hours. The whole day passed by without me doing anything positive for myself. I hope this journal will be a positive step in the direction I want to go.