Thank you @Saville, I try to keep going on Tonight I'm alone again at home, kids and wife still sleeping at my mother in law's house. When I came back from work I wasn't afraid of being alone regarding PMO today. It's crazy how things change. Before, I was so happy and in a rush to be alone to PMO... Then, when my reboot started 2.5 years ago, I was scared to be alone, scared to face my addiction and not being able to stay clean while alone at home. Nowadays I'm happy to have some quiet time, time for me to relax, to workout, and to spend time with my best companions: books . It's not overconfidence, but I simply know that I won't PMO tonight, it's no longer at the program. I have better and healthier things to do .