Last chance...

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by CleanBootsBaby!, Aug 28, 2021.

  1. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Clocking in day 8.

    "Where are they now?" - asks the following song about "the broken heroes". The broken ones give up (most stop coming back here; few stop because they beat this thing into a bloody pulp).



    What kind of men are we?

    Being normal is heroic nowadays. I don't want to be pathetic anymore, ever.

    Jesus Christ! I may have a little daughter someday. I don't want to look at her with the same eyes that hours earlier were saturated by filth. I don't want to be any less of a man than she will think of me as.

    I want to be able to look my boy in his eyes when I tell him that he should stay away from some things that are freely available and others don't. Your pop does, he is not a hypocrite. And did even when he was single.

    Those two won't exist unless I have a wife. There's few experiences, and I don't think any of the normal (non-spiritual) kind among those, that feel better than giving yourself wholly to a woman that does the same for you. Making her melt into an orgasm for the first time, as she loses control and pulls you deeper in her.

    The wedding night, with us both both virgins, still ranks as one of the best moments of my life. Again, only spiritual experiences can top the one of giving and receiving the ultimate gift in purity. All in contrast with a cursed world that devalues and derides purity.

    All these three are only in my mind. Even if they won't ever exist, doing the right thing is still worth it.

    I am not Catholic, but I can appreciate this imagery (from "Adoro Te Devote", Thomas Aquinas):

    Lord Jesus,
    loving Pelican of Heaven,
    cleanse me, a sinner,
    with Your Blood;
    for a single drop
    can save
    the whole world
    from all its sin.
     
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  2. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Not happy with today's spendings at all (they were necessary, though).

    Again, coping in healthy ways with the stress / frustration is manly. Unlike...running to...fashion some crutches out of bad wood and get impaled with splinters as they shatter, right?

    9 days in. Some days it feels like the only good thing I achieved in the past 24 hours. Might sound cynical (and blatantly false, honestly) but one derives a sense of self-worth out of it. While so many others quit today, your boy didn't.

    We're in control over this. Not being in control over something feels awful, don't want to ever feel that again; this is a good image:



    We got a 747 coming down in the night
    There's no power, there's no runway lights
    Radio operator try to get a message through
    Tell the flight deck New York has no lights
    There's no power, what do we do
    A 747 coming down in the night
    Try to get a message through
    We were strangers in the night
    Both on separate flights
    Stangers in the night
    Going nowhere
    We were strangers in the night
    Both on separate flights
    Stangers in the night
    Going nowhere

    This is Scandinavian 101
    Flight from Hawaii coming out of the sun
    Kennedy, you should be in sight
    We can't see a thing here in the night
    Navigator says we're on the flight path
    There's no radio, no sign of life
    This is Sandinavian 101
    For God's sake get the ground lights on
    'Cause we were strangers in the night
    Both on separate flights
    Strangers in the night
    Going nowhere
    We were strangers in the night
    Both on separate flights
    Strangers in the night
    Going nowhere

    There's a 747 goin' into the night
    There's no power they don't know why
    They've no fuel they gotta land soon
    They can't land by the light of the moon
    They're overshooting there's no guiding lights
    Set a course into the night
    Scandanavian 101
    For God's sake get your ground lights on
    We were strangers in the night
    Lost on separate flights
    Strangers in the night
    Going nowhere
    We were strangers in the night
    Lost on separate flights
    Strangers in the night
    Going nowhere
    Strangers in the night
    We were strangers in the night
    Strangers in the night
    We were strangers in the night
    Strangers in the night
    Both on separate flights
    Strangers in the night
    Going nowhere
    We were strangers in the night
    Flight 101
     
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  3. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    As the Romans used to say, X days.

    (Can't wait til XXX :D (a healthy one)!)
     
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  4. -Luke-

    -Luke- Well-Known Member

    Lol :D

    NoPMO legend Marcus Aurelius.
     
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  5. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Hahahaha!! Good one. Thanks, man, for the laugh.
     
  6. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Why NOT to play with fire (extra-motivation / reminder, I didn't):


    See y'all tomorrow, acknowledging 11 days in advance.
     
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  7. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    12 days in the bag. Today was a sunny day, some major things turned out exactly as I had hoped for. I am praying they stay this way and that my health gets better.

    Although many times I've been compared by others to a "modern Job" (too many losses at once to count...), I am thankful to God for the good things in my life. I confess a hope for the future, even when everything tries so hard to make me forget about anything of this sort. As the eyes of slaves look to the hand of their master, as the eyes of a maid look to the hand of her mistress, so our eyes look to the LORD our God, till he shows us his mercy. (Psalm 123:2)

    *

    Glad to see that the forum also seems more animated in the past two days. I am used to such active communities. I confess that in the beginning I was disappointed, and almost left the forum, because this place seemed dead.
     
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  8. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    How’s it going man? Managed to keep the streak going?
     
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  9. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Yes, thank you for asking! Appreciate it. I'm in a very good place aaand...two weeks in!

    Something to match my calm and optimistic mood (an old favorite):



    And the children shall lead the angels at play
    In the fields of slaves
    For man is the hunted, accused and forsaken and slain
    By his own domain
    The diamond's edge will cut the eyes of the paper mask
    In paradise
    The fools of fortune paint their portraits
    On carnal crimes and lonely lies

    The tides of war that crash within
    To break the heart and lash the skin
    A man awaits the child inside
    To end his bloody reign in time

    Love never dies - Love never denies
    Love never lies - Love desperately cries
    Unto the other side
    Unto the unborn child in your eyes

    Walk by faith and walk by sight
    You're sanctified with Blood and Light
    In days of roses, nights sublime
    The Prince of passion lives divine

    Love never dies - Love never denies
    Love never lies - Love desperately cries
    Unto the other side
    Unto the unborn child in your eyes

    *

    Love these guys! I crave to rediscover that innocence of the "child in my eyes"...and I'm on my way.

    I'm all in.
     
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  10. Newwaynewlife

    Newwaynewlife Member

    Congrats for the two weeks!! I wish you at least 20 other weeks like these ones ;)
     
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  11. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Thanks, brother. I appreciate it!
     
  12. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Refresh, refresh...15 days at last!

    Time for some inspiring power metal...@BoughtWithBlood will like these lyrics:


    And now I'll take you to a realm yet unseen
    Deep in the forest to a crimson tree
    This is the place where a Lion died
    His Sacred Pact with humanity
    This Blood has a power to heal your wounds
    To break the spell of the curses chains
    Come bathe in the Lion's Blood
    The Bleeding Tree

    A pool of Blood at the foot of the Tree
    A heart grows heavy at its beckoning
    If you step inside and drift below
    There's visions of pain, loss, love and sorrow
    This Blood has a power that cannot fail
    To quench the charm of the serpents trance
    Come bathe in the Lion's Blood
    The bleeding tree

    This Blood has a power to heal your wounds
    To break the spell of the curses chains
    Come bathe in the Lion's Blood
    The Bleeding Tree

    Eloi! Eloi! Lama Sabachtani
     
  13. BoughtWithBlood

    BoughtWithBlood Well-Known Member

    Good job on 15 days!

    Let’s go even further together :D

    I usually don’t like metal with the high pitched male voice as singer, but this one was alright. Liked the instrumentals and the lyrics were great!
     
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  14. big54

    big54 Active Member

    Congrats on breaking 2 weeks bro. To quote high school musical, "We're all in this together". You go metal, I go Disney, lol.
     
  15. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Join the Power Metal revolution, bro! Truth being said, I'm more of an 80s baby, like the "old school" metal BUT I have nothing against the more brutal type. Also, to me lyrics are almost everything.

    Thanks for the support, yeah, pushing forward. More details in a subsequent post.
     
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  16. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    LOL, nothing wrong with Disney! Fond memories from childhood! (Well, it did make a few women to wait a few years too much for their Prince Charming, but other than that, it's great!)

    Thanks for the support, bros! We're in this together alright!
     
  17. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    So...I had, after so much lack of "action", a wet dream. Felt amazing, very intense. Like back in the day. This is good!

    What isn't, is that I'm still horny. My extremely "helpful" brain quickly reminded me of a certain actress I didn't get a chance to...watch "in action". My lizard brain is pushing me in that direction, projecting "how fine it would be".

    Well, that's not going to happen. I'd be an idiot to. There's the better, real thing out there.

    This old chap put on today some nice clothes, walked around in the city with stuff to do, and still got women (even younger) checking him out. Truth be told, there was one that almost broke her neck, not so young, but high school girls as well. This thing can boost one's self-confidence...big time. Forget lusting after women, that's not for me as a Christian man, but I'm not blind and makes me feel good. Every time I get nostalgic about some new fine line, I'm reminded that women care less about them on our faces than on theirs.

    Rant incoming: for the life of me, I don't understand (although I, too, used to be that way...so in a way I can!) why on Earth men (old or young alike) don't dress better. Not expensive stuff, either. Everyone acts much nicer towards you, hands-down. Fitting, accessorized clothes brought me compliments from women often. They make you stand out in a place where others just throw some clothes on and go on with their life. Kinda tells: "This guy's got his life in order."

    Truth be said, I may have some innate ability to match clothes. What I don't know about, I find on the Internet. But OTOH I think anyone can develop good taste. Well, almost...I mean, I've seen some progress in my friend's abilities, the one that used to go to public events in jeans stained with paint, and didn't even realize it. Shame, he's a good looking dude.

    *

    I still need to be more disciplined with my sleep. When I sleep enough, I start getting boners throughout the night, wake up to them.

    Back to the "real business": so confident I'm on top of things (I accept 100% responsibility for my choices and I already like the place I'm in at the moment...), that I'm going to clock in advance 16 days.

    This thing is really ON, there's no going back for us, boyos! Think about how many lives addictions have ruined. Think about how many times it made you hate yourself.



    You can pull yourself out of the hole you dug yourself into. It takes time, but anyone can do it.

    We are building a legacy here, that's no small feat.
     
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  18. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Still soldiering on. Flexing over this addiction and stuff.

    Still horny, but it does not matter. Just goes to show I'm a healthy male and gives me more opportunities not to be a little quitter.

    I think you'll find, everybody loves a loser...



    Give a listen to the words...

    Today I'll have 17 days rubbish-free.
     
  19. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    I see the temptations for compromise coming my way. Essential not to entertain them. I will keep pushing on, life is more than giving indiscriminately into its pleasures. (Especially if they are of the poisoned flavor.)

    There is a time for everything, and the time for (any kind of) sex is not here yet. Time for PMO is...never-ever.

    Hope everyone has a good day today. It's a good day not to give in!

    We're re-learning how to live. God gave us the prescription long time ago..."stay away from sin".

    Relatable:


    Will be back in the evening. To clock in 18 days.
     
  20. CleanBootsBaby!

    CleanBootsBaby! Active Member

    Short note: 18 days it is, gents.

    It was a lovely evening, went to the movies. Eh, being alone has its perks.
     
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