Last Chance For Me

Discussion in 'Ages 30-39' started by birdsky, Aug 16, 2020.

  1. Joost

    Joost Member

    Hey man.
    Everything we do in the dark will be brought into the light.
    What i'm suggesting is that you open up about your porn addiction to someone trustworthy in the institution. It's good you had an emotional release, maybe some blockages have been flushed away. But don't be fooled into thinking this solves the problem. It might be good to take the step to come clear about your addiction.
  2. Shady

    Shady Active Member

    @birdsky that's the thing with reboot. It could throw you in this depressing cycle. I'm struggling with this right now so I know what you're going through.
    Stay strong.
  3. birdsky

    birdsky New Member


    I don‘t know man. I haven‘t talked to the psychologist yet. They are very young, probably same age as me. It‘s uncomfortable.


    Right now I am in flatlate Yesterrday and today had slightly headaches. It feels so weird, I see that I have extremely issues with my social anxiety, that stresses me and I fear to relapse because of the stress that causes the social situation with the other people in the hospital.

    Here is a very nice girl, talk when we meet randomly for eating. I don‘t know why, I talked to people and she was too, but i kind of ignored her or haven‘t asked her questions were I should have too. Now, I am freaking out what she thinks about me. I don‘t have any intensions with her, because I believe in marriage and not dating. It‘s still so frustrating.

    This social situations are killing me. I have also hard time to focus and concentrate. I lost the sense where I am and who I am.
  4. birdsky

    birdsky New Member

    Social anxiety calm down. I think this girl was‘t mad at me. Everything ok.

    I am still in flatline. Cried some time today. Just abstain from your pc and smartphone and the deepest of you will come into light.
  5. Shady

    Shady Active Member

    @birdsky don't dwell on your past actions.
    Ask yourself this "if I went back in time will I act the same way?"
    If the answer is no, then you've learned your lesson and you'll do better in future situations.
    Just remember, it will take you many tries and mistakes till you finally get it right, so don't rush things.
  6. birdsky

    birdsky New Member

    I need some advise. I have been flatlining since the 10th of October. Almost two weeks. Have a hard time to get erections. What is good, but my penile skin doesn‘t look good at all.

    I haven‘t opened up with my addiction here, and I think I won‘t.

    They did tell me, that medication would help for my depression, however I don‘t know if that would have an effect on my addiction or longterm damage to my sexuality. I have read that those SSRI are even given to rapist etc.

    They want to give me Setralin or Escitalobrem. Has anyone here experience with that?

    Actually my streak is going pretty well, I don‘t know if my depression would go away without nofap and finding a wife.

    Btw @Shady that‘s a pretty nice approach, I thought about it and think now what you mean. I will continue thinking about that. Thanks.
  7. moose

    moose Member

    Ive been on Pristiq which is an SNRI which is better than a SSRI in terms of sexual side effects. Although each can effect people differently. If you are worried about sexual side effects SNRI may be better. But I'm not a Dr. They maybe be offering those for a specific reason.

    In terms of the flatline. I was in a flatline almost 2 weeks in to my reboot. I just recently came out. Well kinda, I guess I'm still in a flatline a little bit. But once I got past the anxiety of the flatline. Things have been easier. It's all in your head. The dangler will start working eventually.

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