i dont know if anyone reads this but i am 22 and i just relapsed. i was doing so well i even got rid of my smartphone. but tonight i thought hey i would use my computer when my roommate is asleep i can handle it. but apparently not. i just feel so gross and helpless and ashamed. i signed up for this i guess to work on it i dont know. if anyone has any suggestions or tips for me let me know. i am desperate.