i think this is my longest. i was high on reefer and that didnt help. tomorrow is a new day wish me luck brahs
Why should I do that? It is true that if you EVER recover, pure luck is the only thing that will do it. You are the most hopelessly lost person on this forum. Everything you post here is full of some bullshit idea you had that will never accomplish anything, like smelling shit while you watch porn to somehow deter you from doing it again. You show absolutely zero determination to put forth the hard work and effort that is essential to recover from addiction. You are not serious about disciplining and managing your emotions and taking responsibility for your actions or your life. You are like that annoying little rat on this forum that will never go away. You will spend the rest of your miserable life trolling this forum unless you make some serious, fundamental changes to your life. But you are not serious. You will not recover until you make serious changes. So stop wasting space on this forum and wake up.
Dont post detail of what you watched in a title either, that's a potential trigger for a lot of folk. Trying posting what made you fail after 30 days and what you were feeling rather than a casual passing remark that you've relapsed. You need to learn WHY and deal with it rather than brush it off.
He does troll once in a while, but his tranny adiction is pretty legit, it's all he ever talks about ever since i joined this forum.
well i relapsed this time because this was a chaser from 2 nights ago and i thought fuk it i just lost 38 days might as well go one more. the reason i lost at 38 days is because i had really bad stomach aches and felt like shit from food poisoning. pmoing was the only thing that made my hell of food poisoning better. even though my stomach hurt my pmo session felt way better. i would not have failed at 38 if i hadn't had food poisonign thats for sure
thanks dude. i felt like shit from food poisoning so this was my escape. but this time i will reach at least 90 days. my best records so far were in 2013-2014(62 days, 38 days). whereas in previous years i never even came close to 20 days. so i am still moving in the right direction. 2 steps forward 1 step back.
yes i do. last time i was with a girl she kissed me started getting close but i wasnt turned on. this was after 40 days on no pmo. i know im attracted to girls because my first kiss was a girl and i was very turned on just by the kiss
