Hello all, I’m writing a journal here, following in the footsteps of a dear friend who also posts on this site. The problems I face: 1. I’m addicted to pornography 2. I’m a Catholic and believe that pornography damages my relationship with God 3. I have two young daughters who I never want to experience any aspect of anything remotely related to the world of pornography 4. I’m married to a wife who isn’t interested in sex due to a few factors; I used to be unfaithful to her before marriage and she acknowledged and accepted the situation (we were still sexually active during that time), but I feel that my activity slowly destroyed the intimacy we once shared – another factor is that we have one child who is eleven months old and another who is under three, and our living situation would make intimacy difficult (in addition to my wife’s lack of sexual interest following childbirth) 5. I have been faithful since my daughters were born, which means I haven’t had sex in almost three years. Until now I’ve rationalized using pornography as a means to curb any possibility that I might be unfaithful again I don’t want to write a whole autobiography in my first post, but those are the broad strokes of where I am now. By writing this journal I hope to find support from people with the same addiction as I do, get advice, and also to hold myself accountable. I go to confession regularly about my addiction and receive support there, but even little things like seeing my streak of days abstaining from pornography use increasing can help me in my journey. Christ went to the desert for forty days and was tempted by the devil. I think it will take a lot longer until things are right between my wife and I, so I need all the help I can get for my time in the wilderness.