A week has passed since my last post, I will try to post as often as that from now on. I've been extremely focused on getting fit this week. A happy occurence was when someone asked me to go swimming with him -- in a lake nearby that I had been to and didn't really like. But we went, and it was so amazing. We swam for 45 minutes straight, pretty nice. I've been two more times since then (in one week), once by myself. I like this a lot - the lake is maybe 15 minutes by car from my home and is almost empty in the morning. On the 'off' days, I've been riding my bike in the morning for about 40 minutes. My diet has also been quite focused, so I've lost a good amount of fat in this one week alone. I'm very happy about that. This friend goes swimming 3-4 times a week, so I can join him until maybe the beginning of October, weather permitting. I've also been looking into proper swimming technique because I never really learned to swim on my back, which is a lot healthier than breast stroke. So that's all really nice and I feel a lot of momentum going on right now -- been to my gymnastics class twice this week on top of the swimming and biking as well. When I went clothes shopping yesterday, for the first time ever a nice classic white shirt fitted me perfectly. Amazing. I've been browsing the forum a bit again and it really made me feel motivated again to let go of porn and masturbation completely. I never really completed 90 days without either. My best no porn streak was something like 300 days, and no masturbation/no orgasm was 36 days or so. I also stumbled across this one thread about not going online after 8 pm, which is something I've more or less actively tried for a couple of years now, and I also want to take a shot at this again. I remember in 2016 I was in Spain for 2 weeks and I didnt use the Internet at all there, plus one more week after coming home, so in total 3 weeks without any computer (didnt have a smartphone or tablet back then) -- I felt so much clarity back then; in fact, even now I can literally feel that feeling of clarity and calmness I had back then. I want that again. @Rengaw: thanks for your post. Really, I felt kinda down before reading it and then felt a bit pumped and got out my bike and rode in the sun for a bit. I've been thinking a lot about your different 'paradigm' - seeing those 3 days a week I work as sort of security and earning some money, while using the other 2 (actually 4 with the weekend) days to work on myself, personal development, other projects and so on. That's a really good perspective, and actually the major cause of my remaining depression is that my days are often too boring and I have too much idle time. I still need to think more about what I can do on those days that will get me ahead in life - one idea I like is to go on a day trip once a week. There's a few big cities in 1-2 hours driving time from me, and I have a long list of sights I want to see or activities I want to do in those areas, so that would be pretty cool.