You’ve gotta be kidding me. This is the motto with which I want to start my new journal and profile on this site. Yes, I know I deleted everything and wanted to leave. But I like YBR too much, and more importantly, I've realized one thing: My life and my journey are so fucked up that they are interesting, entertaining, inspirational, thought-provoking and I shouldn’t live this just by myself. Sort of like a circus that’s in town — people have to go see it or it’s pointless. So I am back. And I’m back with a lay report. After I deleted my profile, I went on that dating site for the first time in a week or so because it was just frustrating. And I met a wonderful woman. Now, my guys will know what I mean by wonderful. I won’t give more details. You know, honestly, it upset me and hurt me the various times several random guys who don’t know me or my story came in here to criticize me and give me a lecture about my views on women and imposing their own (frustrating?) life choices on me without considering my goals, desires, and needs and putting me in one corner with pedophiles and rapists. I won’t hit or rape a woman. But for instance, lying to get laid or having affairs is completely fine to me. That’s all I will say about this (and none of it had to do with me deleting my profile). In the same vein, I've realized that reader views are also based on click-bait — you might post something in someone’s journal and stop caring or being interested after a while, yet when you go to "unread replies", the flashy orange button "new" makes you go for that dopamine and click on it. So in starting a new journal, I want to give people who read my old journal a chance to opt out, and just read this journal if they care or are interested. I also like fresh starts and new beginnings. So from the beginning.