Day 10 Final day of November. Which means I'm keeping my commitment of finishing the remainder of no nut november without nutting. Just googled no nut november and there's some bullshit article on the first page. Apparently it's a hate movement? I don't even want to read the article, it's too difficult to take life seriously when I see headlines like that... Regardless of what you call it, mission accomplished. Where to go from here? Given the recent return of urges (after a near-perfect first week), it's clear what my mind is asking of me. It's not as if I can't shut off the urges. I can, and I feel much better when I do*. But the perfectionist in me feels let down by the past couple days, and wonders if perfection is best re-attained by relapse. A relapse is usually devastating, but a relapse after succeeding at a commitment would be unprecedented... But I also said this: I need to keep my head in the game. Go to bed early, wake up with renewed commitment.