Day 7 no PMO Day 5 no MO I spoke to 4 members of the public out and about yesterday. I'm putting attractive ladies on the back burner for a while and trying to seek the pleasures in purely chatting to new people for the sake of it. It is interesting the conversations you find yourself having. I also made some new friends at a group for anxiety which I attended in the evening, and I telephoned the local wildlife trust to volunteer myself for woodland maintenance: clearing paths, coppicing trees etc. My doctor recommended volunteering as one of the best things for depression, and I was doubtful whether I'd actually consider this option, but now I have and I'm glad I did. So I feel good about myself this morning, but not looking forward to today as work always brings me down as my anxiety goes through the roof and I can feel the anticipatory anxiety building already. I'm looking to forge genuine connections in my life and it is not easy to do this in the workplace, in my experience, where everybody is wearing their own masks. I decided to video myself reading back my YBRB journal, which dates back to 2014, and observe my feelings and reactions to it today. It is a very interesting exercise and I highly recommend it. It was helpful to observe where I was tripping up, not just in terms of the practical errors I was making, but also in terms of my beliefs and attitudes, which have to be addressed in the battle for permanent change.