I can relate to that last part. I don't really know how to properly 'adult' and very often when I look at my life I feel like I'm way behind other people my age. I mean: I'm 37 and just finished my Masters last month. From what I've read on these boards we are not the only ones either. But perhaps living up to all these expectations we were brought up with is not what living is about. The last couple of years I have been learning about all that is beautiful about live and there are a whole lot of things that are worth your time and energy. It would probably take my entire life to name them all and that's not just because I stutter For example, this weekend it was National Spidercounting Weekend in my country. You just go around your garden and count as much spiders as you can find. You could also do it in your house or near your appartment. It doesn't matter. I did it for the second time yesterday and I loved it. Why? Because you take time to see a part of this world that you never payed close attention to. You see all these things that are right in front of you, but that you never took the time to see. I honestly believe that the more you engage with your surroundings the more you will find how valuable it is. This is enriching your life at no costs but time and energy. And like I said: there are a whole lot of ways to do that.