no PMO - 32nd day meditation - 15th day In terms of pmo this day was pretty easy but Im torn because of not knowing what to do about being jobless (I may be overreacting but thats how Im feeling right now). Ive got that offer to get 2month practice withing pretty good company but its unpaid and I need to let them know about my decision tomorrow till midday. Also tomorrow Ive got another job interview but for a practice not related at all to my field of study. Im losing hope for finding a real job right now and Im thinking about taking that unpaid practice. I mean Im looking for a job for almost 4months now without any result so I think thats a time to let go of being so proud and go for practice once again... Damn, it fucking sucks to go through practice or apprenticeship(whatever you want to call it) few moths for free and be a struggling poorfag for so long. And whats the worst I dont have any assurance to be hired afterwards even if I will do exceptionally well... I know Im bitching and complaining but thats what I hate about place I live in. It sucks when it comes to work. I have no idea what to do. It will have big impact on at least few months of my life and even could impact it whole. Its not easy to make decisions like this one. @HowToKapow Thanks man yeah the purpose of writing a journal was to not forget that threat with porn is real all the time so I guess its working so far and I mean it, last time I was writing my journal I realapsed some time after decision to not post anymore. The habit of posting few words every evening helps me stay away from relapsing really well. Also simple act of writing helps me clarify my thoughts so Im not giving up on that any time soon.