Hi guys, I already posted under "Porn Induced E.D." and follow herewith a proposal of another member to start a journal of my progress. The beginning is some sort of repeating my first post in order to keep the journal complete. Now I would like to introduce myself and describe the situation I am in. I am 43 years old and got divorced 2 years ago from a 20 years lasting marriage. Even before marriage I started to masturbate to porn (not internet but porn magazines). Masturbation lasted also during being married since I needed sex on a daily basis whereas my wife was satisfied if sex would happen once a week. Sex was never a problem for me although I had the impression I was addicted to my fetish (pantyhose) very much since I was not able to have sexual intercourse without pantyhose anymore. Not regarding this fact during marriage I never even thought of ED at all. In the last 2 years being a single person up to now I had no other partner so I kept on just masturbating to internet porn - sometimes even twice a day. Now I met a wonderful woman and she is absolutely fine with my fetish and all but when we tried to have sex it was not possible. I just had a very weak erection and was very disappointed of myself. The following two attempts were a catastrophy as well. I have to add that my partner was very understanding and did not force me. She is not the problem, it's me. I already stopped to masturbate and stopped watching porn in the internet two weeks ago - just checked it once more, it's only 12 days ago, I stopped on 20th of August - before visiting this site (right after my first failure) just in order to be horny enough to have sex with my partner. But it didn't work anyway. Stopping masturbation / watching porn wasn't any problem at all. This fact surprised me a little bit. But to be honest I often masturbated because I was used to masturbate daily not because I really needed it. Weird, isn't it? I find it really hard not even think about porn. I think very often about sex especially now while having this problem. In my imagination I have sex with my partner although knowing I am not able to. This fact almost drives me crazy. Yesterday and today I had a morning wood which is a progress although it lasted not very long. I do not remember when it happened in the past decade. But since week 2 began I completely lost sensitivity in my penis. It is like dead meat, it really makes me scared and it helps a lot to read other members experiencing the same. I feel some sort of strange aching in the upper part (somewhere where the glans starts inside the penis) without touching it at all, which occured the first time today. Not much but I am aware of it all of the time. It reminds me as if I would have been masturbating too much, like four times in a row. What is going on here?