Day 193. Well, I did something bad and peeked a little bit last night. Not really sure what came over me. Either way, I'm glad to say I wasn't turned on or enthralled by anything I saw. I looked up specific shit I liked too. Oops >.< It had zero effect on me, and I'm really happy about it. Probably a mixture of guilt and anxiety that made me not like it, but either way, I did not find it enjoyable. It's different from every other time, cause I must admit I did enjoy the brief rush from previous times. Can't say I'm not slightly disappointed in myself, but things have been going so well lately there is no way I'm gonna let this bring me down. Lyss and I have been doing phenomenal. I've probably had sex 20+ times since I've last journaled, all with zero erection issues. Social life is going well. Oh, AND I have a new job that I'll be starting up as a Therapeutic Support Staff. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't extremely nervous, but I'm also really excited. Finally landed a job relevant to my psychology degree, and I'll be making more money with full time benefits, AND I'll actually be doing something extremely rewarding. AND it's extremely good work experience!