Brief Background info: Started watching porn when I was around 13, didn't realise the effect it would have. Was always a bright, happy kid but then the shine slowly started to deteriorate. Severe social anxiety, periods of mild depression / suicidal thoughts. A few sexual encounters and girlfriends but ED put an end to them. In 2013 I started being sick at social events due to anxiety, then later that year I finally discovered NoFap. A real God send. I hit the ground running and thought I would be free. Managed to go 30+ days before relapsing. I was so proud. However, this trend continued. I have repeatedly got to around 45-60 days but ended up relapsing. The best I did was around 100 days, but that included masturbation and some sex. I managed to go 60 days soft mode at the start of this year but now I'm struggling to get past the 30 day mark. In total I have been trying to quit for around 4 years. I went to see a psychologist about the anxiety and brought up the Porn addiction, but at the time I was doing well with various techniques I'd found online so she couldn't offer that much help. My lifestyle has been fairly healthy, daily meditation, exercise etc. I wanted to keep it fairly brief because my story seems to be a common one! If you want more details, please do not hesitate to ask. So, what I hope to achieve with the reboot: *Become free from porn (heh!) and build up techniques to help with craving, flashbacks etc. *Be able to have faith that my erection will be there when I need it. *Overcome confusion and insecurities about sexuality. *Learn what a healthy sexual relationship should be like. *Learn to have a healthy relationship with women and stop over-sexualising them. What I am currently using to help: One thing I noticed with a lot of relapses is they come out of the blue. I read about not putting too much emphasis on counting the days and after a week or so I would forget about porn and start believing this would be the time when I stop. But then a sad day. .A bad day. A day where i think 'oh I'll just google this.' 'I wonder how old this pornstar is.' BAM relapse city. So now, I have put focus into getting through each day. I'm using a technique I saw on Reddit but changed it slightly: Every day in the morning, post workout and meditation, I write down a reason I want to stop on a sheet of A5 paper. Then on another, I write half a page or more of lines, usually, 'I want to be PMO free' or 'I want to be additction free' or 'every day I will quit PMO.' I really try to feel and empower the words when I'm writing them. I then repeat this in the afternoon when I get home from work. I have a table stuck on the wall with DAYS AM/PM and when I complete my reason and lines for that period, I put an X. At the end of the day, if I didn't relapse, I put a line through. I'm hoping this daily commitment to stopping PMO will help. I also plan to keep a blog this blog going. Currently I am on day 10 after having a pretty bad weekend of binging. They have been tough. Yesterday and today I'm having lots of flashbacks / fantasies. I had to end my meditation early because having my eyes shut was too dangerous, I needed to do something else. So I came here. Thanks for reading! I hope I can be of some assistance to others on this forum.