Hi. I am a 32 year old man, getting divorced in 2 days due to my PMO addiction since I've had since I was 15 years old. It's progressed over time from scrambled P, to pics on the internet, to videos, and shamefully I've been into shemale/transsexual porn as a fetish of choice for the last 10 years or so. I've tried hundreds of times to stop, but I've never really admitted my problem to this extent so that's probably why I have failed. Right after my separation I went almost 30 days without PMO. Then it elapsed hard for about a month and now I've gone another 2+ weeks now. My goal is to update this journal as much as I can, daily if necessary. And I want to login any time I have the urge to relapse. Last night I had a dream about shemale porn and I almost had a wet dream. I woke up with an erection and wanted so bad to jerk off but I didn't give into the urges. During the day I caught myself looking at some really attractive females and tried my best not to do any double takes which will often lead to me relapsing. One tactic I've learned is when I get an image in my mind of a favorite porn scene instead of fighting it right away just to realize that my mind is obsessing and to instead let it float away. That's helped me with having intrusive/anxious thoughts and it also seems to help with P thoughts too. I can't wait to make it to 21 days!!! It will be a huge milestone for me.