Thanks Zed. Yeah, I do find myself going to a real good place when I listen to that man speak. We even put him on in the car when we're going for long drives with the kids. I like the idea that my boys will grow up having heard such wisdom from a young age. And they even ASK me to put him on now! They sit there and listen intently, instead of bickering with each other. I am seeing slow but very real changes in them as I expose them to more and more of this. I love what I am seeing... I am well. Working in an active A&E department is an endless learning experience. I leave every day with a feeling of gratitude, and the certainty that it has not been just another day of my life squandered and without any real meaning. I am feeling more and more aligned to my purpose, as I grow into it. It's a growing and not a dying. 254 days. I don't look at the counter very often anymore. It doesn't hold a lot of meaning now, though I acknowledge that it once did. This is my life now, and it's not the life it once was. I am happy for that in so many ways. My woman and I are in such a beautiful place...really new territory. The old bumps in the road come up from time to time, but the way we roll past them is so completely new. There is growing ease and grace. I almost look forward to the bumps now...because I love witnessing the way we manage to move through them. I need to ask of the men involved in the mentoring: who would be willing to step up and be the gatekeeper? I have been at it for two months now, and feel like it is maybe time to pass the torch. It is not a huge commitment of time. It just means monitoring the thread for new requests, and responding/forwarding them via PM. I can fill anyone interested in on the details. Please let me know if you feel the calling. Love to you all.